Hello guys & girls, I'm back after a long day at school , yah .
Nothing to type, but I have one feeling now, to quit band .
That feeling just totally come all of the sudden just now during band,
I know I still love band, but ...
I feel like staying on, yet on the other hand, I just want to quit ,
Still wondering whether to go for band on Friday,

One reason I want to join band cause i like music, like cool,
another reason cause my sister is in band, now she's gone,
As you know, I'm in trumpet since I joined band,
3 quarter of the year later, I was transferred to percussion,
one reason, lack of sec 1s and another, i wanted to be a Section Leader just like my sister,

I knew I'll never have a chance to be a section leader in trumpet cause I totally have no interest in trumpet and cause of one person I hated, and she's just so proud of everything she does, like WHATEVER . I don't care, & one thing, I want to go in SYF, cause my sister didn;t go in SYF, I want to like , I don't know how to say but .. I know if i'm in trumpet, the chances are just 0 .

I felt that percussion section really welcomed me ever since I join percussion, but now, just a small mistake in practising, got scolded and I'm no longer playing my part, for the set piece, I just feel sometimes I'm just so useless,
I'm just a junior right? How you expect me to play like a senior, I'm not even in percussion for half a year yet, at least I get my strokes, etc, JUSTA SMALL MISTAKE, in practice , not SYF, my role is just taken away. I'm already feeling so bad, yet you still come and ask me to accept the fact . You know how much I cherish playing in band, I tried my best right, every practice I never missed at all, I trying my best to learn , not like I'm super woman right?

I really admire my sister sometimes, why everything she join late, yet she can just rise up so fast, I know she has talent, thats why she's my sister, I just wish I could be like my sister, having such close friends, such talents she can show off, and stuffs,

I just feel so bad now, I really feel like quitting band so much, starting from last year, i feel so bad not joining back netball, I knew joining band will be fun, but now, I just hate whats happening sometimes,
regardless being a chairman, a councillor, a student, a band member and stuffs, I just feel the pressure is on me,


Okay, I'm alright already. Fa seh wan le , I don't care ready, things done is done, SYF only, i don't care. The most die only, but you know what, the guy who took my part away and ask to take my role away, whatever, i don't care, the most quit band only. CCA may add some points to the O's, the most I join another CCA .

Yah, anyway, good night .

LOTS OF LOVE,
6.33P.M.
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JINGYING